No Way Out

I have been stuck the past 18 days in my site due to the fact that my site is located in a gorge, the river flooding, landslides, falling rocks and the faulty engineering of roads. Luckily we still had running water and the electricity was on most of the time. I let Peace Corps know that I was in a bit of a situation if there was an emergency but otherwise everything was fine. We ran out of a few fun items like yeast, butter, milk, and the produce selection was minimal at best, but there was no panic, no problems (unlike an inch of snow in the South). I missed helping out with a friend’s health program in her site and a few meetings which was unfortunate. I got a little stir crazy since I couldn’t even get across the bridge leading into my site (it was a part of the river,) and out for a decent walk. I just hope that this is a wake-up call for the people in my village that fixing the bridge and roads in the gorge is a priority. Who knows. I read an article recently Think Again: The Peace Corps, by Robert L. Strauss about Peace Corps and its purpose. It can be found at www.foreignpolicy.com. I encourage you to read it because I find myself in this situation now: What role does the Peace Corps serve? Am I simply a diplomat for the United States? Or am I a developmental association? Do I help these people find money to help rebuild this bridge, something I have been asked to do much more recently since the weather disaster, or am I here to be a health educator and integrate into this society? It’s such a blur, and it keeps me up at night. Am I doing the best I can here? Should I be doing more? What else do I need to be doing here now? I look for direction and just find more questions. Where Peace Corps is a set of guidelines and map without a key, I find myself conflicted more and more and anxious as I approach these last 12 months. I think a trip into town tomorrow and reconnecting back with the outside world should do me a world of good. At least, I hope so.